I'm not dead yet.

[zigs]

Several weeks ago I was approached by some teenagers and offered drugs. I was depressed, confused and pretty stupid at the time, and so I asked for what they had. I didn't buy any, but they gave me some anti-depressants for free, out of sympathy. I have kept them on me at all times. I have read the perscription and figured out it is too strong even for someone my age, height and weight. (I was 17, 5ft 10 and 10stone.) But for some odd reason I couldn't throw them away. I have become very close over the past few days to take them, and now I am on the edge... I hope things get better, or for all I know, next week I could be in a hospital bed recovering from a nervous shock...

I just thought you should all know --- I am no druggie, I didn't take them....

[Deleted]

dude you woudln't be a druggie jsut by tkaing anti deperessnats afterall my mum takes them and so do other people. It is only when you becoem addicted to them that you become a druggie and i mena addicte dot taking them nad you get with drawla systme.s my mum has to tkae them otherwsie she will proabaly attmept suciide again. her leifes very hectic at the moment.

[Haunter 360]

I'm glad you didn't take anything worse than anti-depressants.
It's great you have that much self-control, even in such harsh times...


Man, you could like, PUBLISH your biography!
It's amazing!



Please keep on writing!

(And eat more! Take in da nutrition)

[Deleted]

wow he coudl, but to get ltos of moeny form an autobiography (as that what it woudl bea as he ahs writtne it) you need to be famous. Thoguh it will be useful when zigs becomes what he si destined to be and that is a very important person.

[zigs]

I sat down by bed last night in silence, in nothing by a huge t-shirt, for the overly obese. I put my head in my hands and stared at the floor. My granddad was outside talking to someone about my condition. I slowly found out why my body was freaking out. It was a growth spurt, and it was happening faster than I wanted it to. After they left I sighed with relief. I laid back onto my bed and gazed into the pitch black ceiling. I looked around the bed to find food that the maids had left behind and scoffed everything I found.

This morning I took another walk around the green when I saw a couple of teens picking on a rather chubby youngster. They were calling him 'Fat', 'Lard', 'Tubby' etc. And of course I approached, my stroke of bad luck hadn't gone yet, but I couldn't care less, what they were doing was morally wrong.
"Oi! Cheap scapes!" I shouted from afar. "Leave him alone." They obviously asked why, and I walked up to them and well, my height intimidated them, so they ran. The chubby boy thanked me.
"I wish I was tall and thin like you." He said as I took him home.
"I wish I was short and chubby." I replied, in a more of fed up way.
"Why?" He asked in confusion.
"Look, I like being tall, but everyone gets scared." I then lifted up my top and let him watch my heart beat, he was horrified. "But with as much fat as I have... If I were to be punched right there, I would either get a heart attack or instantly die. Plus, fat can be made into muscle, as well as it helps you grow." I tried to re-build his confidence. After that was over he told his mum he liked being the way he is, she looked so relieved, as a matter of fact... So was I.

Around lunchtime I ate as much food as I could, cream cakes, apple pies, chicken skin... Everything, even though I am a vegetarian, it didn't matter. The maids and butlers would walk passed and smile, the chef adores me now. Things seem to be getting better...

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it's all good then/

[Haunter 360]

Not really.
Realistically speaking, no one has a moment in which 'all's good'.


But, treasure this good period Zigs, and remember it.
And remember - You're awesome! I mean it!
I mean, you're standing up to others, with bravery!

Heck, you're an inspiration.

[Deleted]

too true. too true

[zigs]

After lunch I went back to my room and stared into my bathroom mirror. I was mainly concentrating on my heart beat when I heard a knock at the door. At first I pretended I wasn't in, then soon caved in and let them enter. It was my granddad and the ex-gardener. At first I was weary, until they told me something I was expecting.

"You collapsed onthe landing, and I was down stairs trying to sort things out. I heard you moan pretty loudly as your ribs were being crushed by your body weight. I took you back to your room and let the chef give you all the milk he had." The gardener announced. "You had blacked out, and your breathing was pretty heavy, so we took the liberty to strip you of your heavy cloths and bandaged up your broken rib." He explained.
"You saved me? My rib was broken?" I asked worridly.
"Yes, you are very fortunate to be alive Mr. Griffin." He continued. "You see the reason you can currently see your heart beat is because your rib is loose, and as your heart beats it can move it forwards and backwards." He explained, I gawked in amazement.
"Your supposed to hate me..." I retorted.
"Yes, I know, I thought I did, but the truth is your his grandson, you are his flesh and blood, his pride and joy, and to look after him, protect him like I promised, I will look after you."
"Which is why he is now in charge of security and your part-time body guard." My granddad butted in.
"Oh great." I looked carefully at the giant muscley gardener or body guard. "I can live with that..."

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heh even what you thoguht was an enmey has become your friend

[FlameMaster5]

Life is unpredictable, isn't it?
One day you make an enemy, the next that enemy could possibly become your friend. Of course, I realize the gardener is only doing this because you're related to your Granddad. It's just a friendship because of respect for another person. HOWEVER...that can change in time, it can. Be positive. :]

Your life, Zigs, is honestly amazing. Yes, harsh, but amazing. You know, all heroes have their bad times at first. Your life will get better as it pursues, though, trust me. You are respected by those you have helped and admired too. Those good deeds will go with you to the end, don't forget that. You are very special Zigs, this proves that.

Whether or not this is fact, fiction...or whatever, it still proves you have an imagination and respect for your own life. It tells us all you're not a quitter, that you won't back down. Despite everything that has happened, you will be honored for your good deeds. Never forget that. and never forget that we love you very much. :]

[Haunter 360]

Woah! I wasn't expecting that one!

Coolness!

Heh, that's definately interesting Zigs!
And cool!
Can't wait to read the next parts...


Look after yourself Zigs - You're a great guy!

[zigs]

I blacked out last night, and did the worst thing I could have ever done in my life.

When I came to, the lid of the drug bottle was off, with the pills all over the floor. I reached down from my chair and picked them up. Whilst talking to someone I counted them, there was one missing from each colour. I panicked and looked under my bed. But there was nothing, after that I freaked out and threw the container in the toilet. I went back onto the site I was on, and tried to deny the fact I had taken them.

After the last person went offline, my body began to feel strange. My fingers ran across the keyboard, but it felt like jelly, the shadows around my room danced around with energy. I couldn't sit still. I logged off and paced my room. I flicked the lights off and ran to the en suit bathroom, I climbed in the shower and curled into a tight ball, but soon vomited horrifically.

Sweat was dripping down my back. I hit the shower tap which activated the water flow. I was soaking in my cloths. I turned it off and crawled out of the shower, and hid under my bed. I was sobbing and whimpering.

A few minutes later my granddad came in to say goodnight, the light from the bathroom was still on with the door open, so he went in. He must've seen the sick in the shower, and the container still at the bottom of the toilet. He pulled it out and gasped. The body guard came in and heard me whimpering. My granddad ordered him to pull me out, as he did my back rubbed against the carpet, giving me carpet burn.

I was pinned against the wall as my granddad yelled at me, I don't remember what he said exactly, but he back handed me. And a bruise formed extremely quickly. The body guard dragged me down stairs, where I sat for an hour, being examined by the doctor. The only side effects I should get is the opposite of what the pills were for, so I should be getting: Depressed, sleeplessness and impetance (sp).

My Granddad called my dad, at this point I was cowering on the sofa. It turns out these pills got swapped with my little brothers. Which he was prescribed. The body guard decided I needed some sleep, due to the sleeplessness problem, so he used chloraform (sp) on me.

I woke up this morning on the sofa, my head ached from all the light in the room. I looked down at myself, I was stripped and lying under just a sheet. I didn't like what this seemed like.

"Don't worry, none of the maids were in. But you were boiling in your skin, as well as your cloths were drenched. If we hadn't you'd have more than drugs to worry about." The body guard behind the sofa declared.
"Gee, thanks." I muttered.

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thats nto good. by the way the perosn he was tlaking to at the time was me. YEt that doe snto matter too much. Anyway that was a detialed post and iflled iwht emootion and was a fgodo psot althoguh full of bad things.

[FlameMaster5]

Pills, as I have explained before, are dangerous when taken at the same time. They have to be prescribed because they can take affect TOGETHER and cause awful reactions. I don't understand how you blacked out in the first place, but this seems serious! Maybe you..are more prone to fainting. Some people have that...