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Post by Deleted on Mar 20, 2006 2:01:19 GMT -5
 Yeah, you wish you could drop dead. I admit that the latest I've been up is about 2 in the morning, but guys, girls this is way unhealthy! We musn't spend so much time on the internet, for one thing! No offense to anyone, but I sure hope that you all have lives off the internet. Getting to bed super late and being completely awake when you're supposed do be may be a little convenient, but it's still bad for the body and mind. I'm not so good at this myself, but it's still a fact. Oh yeah; What did everyone think about them old motion pictures I showed to you all? You know, those Google videos? Someone's got to like em'... Have a life online? Gee, that's easy for you to say. You're not homeschooled, trapped between delight and horror. I'm like prisoner in my room. And..I have no friends here. Besides, I do school from 8 AM-10 PM or 1 AM everyday. I have no place to go, but here for a social life... No one face-to-face, except my family, likes me... *sigh* Why must I ALWAYS be reminded of that... *small smile* Gotta keep moving on... There is a light at the end of this tunnel... A tunnel that's been going on for 6 straight years... College... *cries happily* I CAN'T WAIT MUCH LONGER!!! MUST ESCAPE!!!! @_@ This is a quote from the "JUST CHAT!!" topic. It just breaks your heart to think that nobody wants to be FlameMaster's friend in person. That's just not right! She may have never had the chance to make any, but she needs to have friends back home. I am praying for her and I encourage everyone to pray, as they have before, that FlameMaster can make, have, and keep friends back in her hometown; And that she can have time to be with them, however they please. It is pretty great to have friends over the internet, but it's nothing compared to having friends who you can embrase, whose laughter you can hear, whose smiles you can see, who you can talk to without waiting for a response, who you can always talk to on the phone, and the list goes on. Not to mention all the things girlfriends do together. |
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Post by Haunter 360 on Mar 20, 2006 2:52:24 GMT -5
I will pray too.
FM5 is such a great person - She deserves better than just... Internet friends.
I'm praying for her too.
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Post by doublemxx on Mar 20, 2006 4:37:16 GMT -5
It's one of those things really..... I'm her friend online but I really want to know her as a person...face to face.... but because she lives so far away, its near impossible....
I make this vow to you now..... I WILL meet FlameMaster IN PERSON before I kick the bucket.....
I will...and I mean it..... I know what its like to have very few friends in real life... I dont like it..... FlameMaster... I will meet you..... I know it will happen..... I just dont know when
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Post by Deleted on Mar 20, 2006 13:54:10 GMT -5
YEAH alll for fm5 and fm5 for all. hmmm doesn't work. oh well i'll be rpayign to. Hey fm5 i will definately mee tyou face to face
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Post by Deleted on Mar 20, 2006 13:58:43 GMT -5
I say the same as Blaze, I would love to meet you ^_^
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Post by Deleted on Mar 20, 2006 14:02:45 GMT -5
Same here
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Post by Deleted on Mar 20, 2006 14:17:22 GMT -5
yep, we all will oen day. well me nm stirby haunter and pyrotials hopefully.
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Post by Deleted on Mar 20, 2006 14:18:38 GMT -5
That would be great
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Post by Deleted on Mar 20, 2006 14:25:22 GMT -5
I'm sure it could happen
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Post by Haunter 360 on Mar 21, 2006 3:00:30 GMT -5
SPAM ALERT!!! Anyhow, don't worry FM5. Friends will come to you. But I know that you'll never forget us.  |
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Post by Deleted on Mar 22, 2006 11:48:02 GMT -5
Scroch:yeah coz if you do i will ppurposely come there nad poke you to death BWAHAHAHA.
Me: hey what are you doing here go away. your sppamming scorch. Anyway fm5 shoudl have all the friends she cna get. She desrerves them
(why am i tlaking ot myself)
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Post by FlameMaster5 on Mar 23, 2006 13:03:12 GMT -5
*gasps*  Whoa... *beaming smile, on the verge on tears* Thank you everyone. ^_^ IllusioN, Haunter, Carlos, Blaze, NM, Stirby.... Thank you, all of you. Sometimes I feel like I will never make friends. And..well, sometimes I wish I had face-to-face friends. I may not have a true life outside my own house, but I wouldn't change the path of my life either. I spent 15 full, miraculous years with my sister. She was all I had - ALL I had - for company. Summer of 2005, she got married and left. I turned 16 in October and this summer I can say I've spent a complete year without my big sister here with me - but I do go to see her when I can. When I was 9, nearly 10, I started homeschooling. I've been doing this for 6 years straight. Never had a friend face-to-face to call my own. And no teenager my age knows the real me - except my cousins, which are the only people I associate with otherwise face-to-face. That's all I have. I only have family to turn to. Not that that's bad, it's just... Well, you get lonely after 6 years, ya' know?  And this year has been a little harder - not having Shelley and all. And when I get upset about it, it's usually at night. Night, the time I come online. And why? Because I see all of you, my true friends. And I get very envious of people who have close friends like you WITH them. And then I get selfish, just desiring to to see you all. And then I start crying because the pain I feel. Then I ask myself if I'll ever have any friends. I just can't..picture myself with face-to-face friends, I just can't. It's been too long since I've been in a classroom. I don't see people my age, only at church. And none of them like me... I honestly don't understand it myself. I've tried getting friends, but it doesn't work out in real life. They see me and have no clue what i'm all about. You all here know the real, true me. This is who I am. And no one else knows how I feel or how badly I want to friends. College is near. Due to homeschooling, I can get in early. I'll be going to college after summer - or sometime around there. I'll be 16 when I first enter, but will turn 17 soon after. I'll be taking a Math, English and Computer course. Math will most likely go much easier for me, English will enhance my skills and the Computer class is to begin one of my other goals - becoming a Computer Graphics designer. ^_^ Don't worry, I'll be taking Creative Writing and other art-like classes when I can. This makes me feel..a little nervous, but I'm definitely ready. I'm ready to step out of my domain, i'm ready to reveal who I am to other people. i'm ready to earn friends and reveal what talent I have. I'll be entering some courses I like, so that will mean people there will be taking what they like to - or aiming for. And THAT is what will get me friends - a common interest. It'll be like forum, but real. And I am determined to get into my college, do my best and aim for the stars. And I'll definitely do my best to see you guys here everyday too. I don't wanna lose the friendships I have made, the friendships I can feel through your words. I am determined. I am strong. I am weak. I am loving. I am compassionate. I am READY! I WILL succeed and I will make face-to-face friends. However, I will be cautious of who I choose to become friends with and I'll stick by them when they need me. However...I have an odd feeling that it will still be you guys that I turn to most. Because, regardless, you all knew me first... Nothing can change my love for you all here - absolutely nothing. If you hold true to me and I to you, then nothing will sever our friendships. Some of my friends have nearly known me for 4 years now. Most of you here have known me for 1 or 2 years. And some have become my friends quite recently. But, you all have a strong bond with me and I have strong bonds with you. And even if you haven't known me very long, our friendship will last a lifetime. I won't forget the people who helped me get through this 6 year isolation. You guys are like my family and I love you each with all my heart. No friend face-to-face could replace you, none of you. You each have a place in my heart - and I've got plenty of slots to fill in. ^_^ I love you guys! Thank you for always being here for me. Your concern shows how much you love me too. And that means everything to me. Whatever path we choose, whether or not we leave here forever, I know I know I won't forget you. And I will do everything in my power to someday meet you all as well. It's not impossible, difficult, but not impossible. But we can handle all obstacles with God, right? I'm sure I'll see your smiling faces someday. If I don't, however,...just remember you helped make me who I am now. I am FM5! ^_^ |
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Post by Deleted on Mar 23, 2006 13:12:00 GMT -5
Whoa, well said FM5. I'm sure I speak on behalf of the whole Light Castle that we all support you greatly ^_^
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Post by FlameMaster5 on Mar 24, 2006 15:24:43 GMT -5
Lol, thank you. ^_^ With as many speeches I've given on my forum, I should rock in Speech-Class at college when I have it. XD And, thanks, NM. ^_^ It's good to have everyone's support. I appreciate it! And I'll be thinking of you guys when I do step into a classroom. I'll be so nervous.  But, ready regardless! ^_^ |
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Post by Haunter 360 on Mar 24, 2006 17:49:09 GMT -5
Yeah, that college won't know what hit 'em! Enjoy it FM5, enjoy it... |
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Yeah, you wish you could drop dead. I admit that the latest I've been up is about 2 in the morning, but guys, girls this is way unhealthy! We musn't spend so much time on the internet, for one thing! No offense to anyone, but I sure hope that you all have lives off the internet. 
And this year has been a little harder - not having Shelley and all. 
But, ready regardless! ^_^