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Post by Deleted on Mar 24, 2006 18:51:09 GMT -5
Oh, dear, college...
*stresses*
It's great to hear that you'll be getting a head start though. I won' t even beging applying to colleges till this autumn. (*stress stress stress*) It'll be tough at first, most probably, as it will be for all of us, but I'm sure you'll find a lot of amazing things there; not just new friends, but new experiences that just can't be compared to the ones you have online.
I have a friend who was homeschooled for most of middle school along with her younger sister, and she used to be awfully shy when she first started coming to public school. But gradually she opened up, and now I respect her as a friend and love hanging out with her because she's lots of fun. I'll pray that you can have a transition just as good as hers, if not better.
I'm glad that you acknowledge the friends you've made online, though. Some people have a hard time accepting that even friends that you don't know face-to-face *can* be considered real friends. I believe it, and it's obvious you do too. So it's all good. :]
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Post by Deleted on Mar 25, 2006 8:09:54 GMT -5
Yeah, that college won't know what hit 'em! Enjoy it FM5, enjoy it...  I agree with Haunter. Knowing what you've been through you dserve to make face to face friends |
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Post by FlameMaster5 on Mar 25, 2006 9:19:16 GMT -5
Oh, dear, college... *stresses* It's great to hear that you'll be getting a head start though. I won' t even beging applying to colleges till this autumn. (*stress stress stress*) It'll be tough at first, most probably, as it will be for all of us, but I'm sure you'll find a lot of amazing things there; not just new friends, but new experiences that just can't be compared to the ones you have online. I have a friend who was homeschooled for most of middle school along with her younger sister, and she used to be awfully shy when she first started coming to public school. But gradually she opened up, and now I respect her as a friend and love hanging out with her because she's lots of fun. I'll pray that you can have a transition just as good as hers, if not better. I'm glad that you acknowledge the friends you've made online, though. Some people have a hard time accepting that even friends that you don't know face-to-face *can* be considered real friends. I believe it, and it's obvious you do too. So it's all good. :] I acknowledge it'll be tough, too. But, hey, God doesn't give you anything you can't handle, right? ^_^ I'll make it through! Heh, I'm shooting for the stars as well as friends. However, I will be cautious of who I become frends with. Unlike online, it's..much harder to determine a real friend from a "fake" one.  *thinks of Titanium in Angel Alliance* >_< But, yes, I know you all are my frends. Some people say you can't feel love over the net. Not true at at all. Why? Well, I do believe an online person made this wonderful thread dedicated to me and a whole bunch others gave me their hopes and wishes. If that's not love, what is?  I'm glad to have you all as my friends! Thank you, Pyro. ^_^ It has been very..struggling. Good times and bad times. But I wouldn't have chosen another path. This path took me away from very bad public schools that had..rather "messed up" students. I wasn't exposed to sinful things, but I learned what not to do and what I should do when I am exposed to them someday. And, I was built up on a firm foundation of God - and was never persecuted by others my age because I am homeschooled. Those are good things. But..I did become rather lonely. I went..into a very bad period of depression once(around 11 and 12). Ever feel hollow inside? Ever feel like your eyes are glazed over? That was what it felt like. I was-..well, I wasn't focusing on anything but the darkness around me. I got through it, though. And..with God, I thankfully came online at 13. I finally found friendships I never had. And the darkness peeled away. I first was on SF7 Productions, meeting The IllusioN there. And then I came to Sonic Haven as I ventured out of my sister's forum. There I met Judge Seribii, Liquid Sonic, Flare, Liliana, Dante, Carlos, Blaze, Dark Flame and several others. I had my original forum by then too. And I met Kaze-Kori, Zeldafan56, Pure Heart, Harrier and the others from SH came too. Made TLCR by this time. Through Blaze, I met NM on NMHQ. And I learned about Stirby there too. ^_^ I also met Haunter! And with Haunter, I met you, Pyro, here on TLCR. Lol, I have a true connection of how I met all my friends. But I didn't just see them and become friends with them. Most of the time I offered to help make them something - like images. Then everyone started liking them. And..then I learned how to do forum designing! And then I spread all over the net, seeking to help everyone. And I think that's why I became..so open. I realized that keeping things inside lead to nothing. Opening up and trying to feel the way I really felt earned friends. And friends I have! Even on TLCR, I've met new friends. So, I just continue to do everything I've been doing, but with more effort. Be myself. |
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Post by Haunter 360 on Mar 25, 2006 9:47:23 GMT -5
Woah... That's one heck of a testimony... ... Awesome! Heh, I know you already know this, but we're here for ya FM5! No matter what happens, we are your friends. Heh, to our very ends!  |
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Post by Deleted on Mar 25, 2006 16:20:31 GMT -5
yeah, i know what you mean about being lonely. I was lonely mainly in the early years of primary school, and i feel much better in secondary school. God has carried me through the bad times and given me such good friends. And for that i thank him with all my heart. Amen
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Post by Haunter 360 on Mar 25, 2006 18:04:39 GMT -5
Everyone feels lonely at some point. Heh, I was a sort of henchman in Primary school. Followed my friend everywhere, obeyed without question. Heh, you're lucky to have had Sonic (Altered name) and your other friends. All of us feellonely at some time, but FM5, longer than most. So, may you have many friends! |
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Post by FlameMaster5 on Mar 25, 2006 23:17:10 GMT -5
Still, loneliness is loneliness. I may have endured more than most, but that at leasts gives me understanding. And I wouldn't change a thing in my life. Not a thing. Because my path lead me through bad things that I also got through. And those bad times helps others now since I've learned from them. I'm not saying I liked my pain, or shedding this many tears, but they are not vain either. |
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Post by Deleted on Mar 26, 2006 1:38:48 GMT -5
Regrets only lead to grief and lost time. It's good that you acknowledge that even your not-so-happy moments contributed something in the bigger scheme of things. :]
(off topic: I like the angel alliance icon in your sig. Dark and Krad suit Titanium and Lukrite well... except for the fact that Dark is actually a good guy and Krad is a villain. xD Hehe, the irony.)
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Post by Deleted on Mar 26, 2006 2:39:06 GMT -5
Basically the message from what i was saying about my days in primary school is this:
FM5, you may be going through a lonely and tough time at the moment but God is looking after you. He will bring you to a place where you will have lots of friends and live a happy life. God only wants the best for you and he will help you to make lots of new friends like i have. don't give up and let God guide you to a better place
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Post by FlameMaster5 on Mar 27, 2006 0:22:57 GMT -5
Regrets only lead to grief and lost time. It's good that you acknowledge that even your not-so-happy moments contributed something in the bigger scheme of things. :] (off topic: I like the angel alliance icon in your sig. Dark and Krad suit Titanium and Lukrite well... except for the fact that Dark is actually a good guy and Krad is a villain. xD Hehe, the irony.) Thanks Liliana. ^_^ Yeah, it took me awhile to realize that fact, but at least it came with time. *laughs* Really? XD My bad. Sorry, I have no cable out here or DSL. So, I honestly don't that many anime shows. AND...that means I wouldn't know who's good or bad. But, hey, it all works out. ^_~ And, you're right, it almost perfectly matches them. That's kinda why I colored them that way. XD Thanks Liliana. It's good to know you like it! Well, Pyro, I will be honest with you. I appreciate your up lifting message, but it is not entirely logical. No, I'm glad you think I will earn lots and lots of friends. But, truth is, that isn't always the case. I may not ever get any face-to-face friends. I'm not trying to dampen my spirits, but it is being honest with myself. If I do earn friends, I'll be thrilled. If not, I'll let God help me endure it until the end. If people face-to-face won't recognize me for who I really am, that's THEIR loss. I'm gonna try not to worry about it or let it make me upset anymore. I'm sure I'll break down and cry again someday, but I won't if I can help it. I just want to look forward, never look back. The only thing I want from my past is my memories and lessons I've collected. I'll pack those and take a trip to the future. ^_^ And, I hope, that trip will eventually lead me to face-to-face friends. If not, that's fine. Cause I'm still planning on the major trip Il'l take to meet all of you. I only care about God, my family, all of you here and my career(s). That's all that matters to me. And I'm gonna do my best through all aspects of my life - or at least try. If there's anything I'm known for, it's being determined.  |
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Post by Haunter 360 on Mar 27, 2006 1:27:34 GMT -5
In this life, we are all tested. Our choices reveal to ourselves, and the rest of the world, just who we are. Circumstances do not make a person, only make them visible. Some people suffer from false friends, who break their trust consistently, some people suffer from lack of company. It's all just up to one question. What are you made of? FM5 may not have face-to-face friends, but we'll stick by here, no matter what happens! |
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Post by FlameMaster5 on Mar 29, 2006 18:49:19 GMT -5
Very true. And I know you will. ^_^ I know you ALL will! |
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*thinks of Titanium in Angel Alliance* >_< 
I'm glad to have you all as my friends! 
