I should apologise...

[Deleted]

Hey everyone. I think you guys need to know why I haven’t been here as much as I should have been. I always said that I had things in life to take care of and I think I should explain what it was.

I don't go out much and usually spend most of my time staying in doors reading or playing games or posting on forums usually keeping my distance from people and trusting others. Just last year I went to a new College. Here I had met a friend. This friend goes home on the trains with me most of the time after school. Now this friend was different to most of my other friends. One day she started telling me things about her personally and how it made her feel. She told me about the bad things in her life. At first I didn't care and I played games and posted on forums like always. Eventually though she asked if I wanted to go see a movie and we did. I had started to go do more outy going things with her.

She wasn't my girlfriend or anything. We were just friends. I had stopped using the internet much or playing games either and spent most of my time outdoors with her. She had taken me to a pub for the first time. When we started drinking she had asked me to talk about myself which I rarely did. I told her things about me and I felt like I could trust someone again.

After Christmas she had started to find it hard to cope with school and other things in her life and had sometimes called me up asking if I could come see her to talk too. Even once before a lesson she asked for my help. We met up and we talked and told her things to help cheer her up.

Then about 2 weeks ago we went to go see Spider-man 3 and I after we were suppose to go to a gig after. She told me to wait around the train station while she got her friends. I waited for about an hour before I called her up asking where she was. She told me that she had already gone and had left me behind. I asked why she did that and she told me that she didn’t care that she did it. She told me to stop being nice to her and that she didn’t deserve. I felt crushed and have just left it.

Which brings me to now. My only friend who I could go out with is gone. I guess things will just have to go back to the way they were. I'm not saying I hate the idea of that. It was just fun while it lasted. You probably be seeing more of me around the forums now.

Neways I needed to vent this somewhere. Sorry if it bumed some people out.

[Deleted]

hey dude don't worry about it. You'll find other friends. Me i haven't really got many proper friends in real life who i think i cna turst. i reckon i can turst a few online. I too don't go out much. bt if yo uread the chaos warrios at any point i didn't mean crest to be a copy of LS which is sort ahow he turned out power wise anywya, but i think iammanged to edit him enough ofr thier to be major differences between them. Anyway.........i never go out either dude. I jsut don't really see the ponit cause whnenver i do i get bored/annoyed or both. so i don't go.

[Haunter 360]

It's no problem at all LS! No reason to apologise!
I mean, the forum is here to keep people happy.
You can leave it and be happy too y'know?
(Of course, I hardly speak from experience)



Me, with that... Subject, I'd just try leaving it for now.
Try not to dwell on it.
Who knows, circumstances change with the tide.

[CS Revolked]

Hey, I consider myself an introvert too, I hate going out I detest it, I'd rather post on here or play ps2 games and such. So yeah. Don't worry much. It happens I don't have best friends I just have distant friends. So yeah life ain't all bad ^^

[Deleted]

sounds like your a bit luck she didn't do something a bit more extreme. Anyways I don't see why your apologizing. It's not like you were doing drugs or something.

[Haunter 360]

And drugs ain't the worst thing a guy can do either.
So, don't sweat it dude!

[CS Revolked]

yeah suicide coz you can't turn back once you've done ;D
but yes, I really don't see LS why ou are apologising, unless you did something wrong

But I doubt that very much, (I am a stalker on profiles beware)

Well anyway, I am Shadowmaster, the master of Shadow the hedgehog. so yeah, my actual name is Mystico93, but I cahnged it to Shadowmaster, so just call me SM

[Deleted]

Your friend sounds like they where crying out for help, like they didn't deserve your friendship and wanted to sink into the shadows, I should know I've been there too often. I think you should try and reach out to this person.

[Haunter 360]

I agree.
It's... Difficult.
But it should be possible.

I mean, nothing's IMpossible.

[Deleted]

Yea Dont' worry about it dude. Its understandable cuz I right now am a Camp Staff at this Camp so dont feel bad I wont be on much either til Friday.

[CS Revolked]

And I'm gonna be busy like heck, coz I've gotta go from 16th june to 23rd august I mean that's a big break. And well just take that apology back. I mean it's your choice whether you come on or not, if you're busy then you can't do nothing about it. Ppl get busy, right? it happens it's a part of evryday life coz if we were'nt busy then nothing would get done.
So yeah. I advise you LS, to take that apology back, there's no need for it, and hope everything goes well for you in the future ^_____________^

[FlameMaster5]

liquidsonic said:

Hey everyone. I think you guys need to know why I haven’t been here as much as I should have been. I always said that I had things in life to take care of and I think I should explain what it was.

I don't go out much and usually spend most of my time staying in doors reading or playing games or posting on forums usually keeping my distance from people and trusting others. Just last year I went to a new College. Here I had met a friend. This friend goes home on the trains with me most of the time after school. Now this friend was different to most of my other friends. One day she started telling me things about her personally and how it made her feel. She told me about the bad things in her life. At first I didn't care and I played games and posted on forums like always. Eventually though she asked if I wanted to go see a movie and we did. I had started to go do more outy going things with her.

She wasn't my girlfriend or anything. We were just friends. I had stopped using the internet much or playing games either and spent most of my time outdoors with her. She had taken me to a pub for the first time. When we started drinking she had asked me to talk about myself which I rarely did. I told her things about me and I felt like I could trust someone again.

After Christmas she had started to find it hard to cope with school and other things in her life and had sometimes called me up asking if I could come see her to talk too. Even once before a lesson she asked for my help. We met up and we talked and told her things to help cheer her up.

Then about 2 weeks ago we went to go see Spider-man 3 and I after we were suppose to go to a gig after. She told me to wait around the train station while she got her friends. I waited for about an hour before I called her up asking where she was. She told me that she had already gone and had left me behind. I asked why she did that and she told me that she didn’t care that she did it. She told me to stop being nice to her and that she didn’t deserve. I felt crushed and have just left it.

Which brings me to now. My only friend who I could go out with is gone. I guess things will just have to go back to the way they were. I'm not saying I hate the idea of that. It was just fun while it lasted. You probably be seeing more of me around the forums now.

Neways I needed to vent this somewhere. Sorry if it bumed some people out.

Hey, LS...
I'm sorry that she hurt you. Some people just don't know how to cope with themselves sometimes. You mentioned she had a rough life. Well, just maybe, she thought she was burdening you with her problems. Maybe she felt like she shouldn't bring you down. People feel that way sometimes, and then sink away--like NM said. Either that or she really didn't want to hanf out with you anymore. Of course, I HIGHLY doubt that! I mean, there had to be a reason. And... Most likely, it's just her problem. So, please, try not to feel bad. There will be others in life that you can count on. Hopefully some will be face-to-face. ^_^

Anyhow...
It's great seeing you. Though I don't like seeing yoiu hurt, I am glad that you'll be around. I've missed ya' tons! ;] *hugs*


Oh! One more thing...
There is no reason for you to apologize for anything. Not to her, not to us for being absent... Nothing. You haven't done ANYTHING wrong. :] *hugs again*

[Timewarp]

to be honest i didn't notice you were gone.....sorry to here about your problems though. but like FM said it's not like you have a reponsibility to come on here and dosen't mean you have to apolgish every time you leave the site cos all your friends here will still like you in fact i have times when i don't come on for months and no-one seems to care that i've gone (probely cos i start arguments and break rules)

[Deleted]

This just keeps getting better and better... She sent me a text asking how I was. If I was going somewhere today. Iv got no idea what I should do. Should I be angry... Nice. Bah... I have no idea whats right.

[CS Revolked]

I think...I dunno what to think actually....I'm not good in these situations..coz I've never been here....so what I'd do is act nice and all, but...big but. Ask her why she ditched you and all, but I'm not good in these situations. So yueah, go with your heart and do what you think is right. ^^ I hope it'll be the right one.